Unit 4 Loving Kindness

I have spent a couple of sessions practicing this loving kindness exercise and I do find it helpful. I feel a sense of wellness and peacefulness once I'm through. This last time I practiced, I sat in front of the fire as I often do. I prefer to do my meditations in front of a candle or the fireplace. I find it more conducive to relaxing and can use the flame to assist me if my mind is to chattery. Anyway, I began thinking of people and things that I love and allowed my mind to bounce around a bit before I brought it back and focused that loving energy on myself. I had made a conscious decision to work on letting go of some baggage that I've been carrying around from my previous marriage and the troubles I've had with my ex since he moved out. So when I felt like I was feeling enough joy and love, I would attempt to bring him into my vision with intentions of forgiveness and hopes of releasing some negativity. I found that I had to repeatedly move his image behind someone that I do care about greatly to bring my joy back because I kept getting very upset. I would then bring him back when I felt well enough again. I know I didn't forgive him of much, but at least I got the process started. I think a lot of things I'm not ready to forgive yet, but I really want the negativity out of me so that I can move on. I don't want to bring my old baggage into my current relationship any more than I already have.